I am staring into space drunk and stoneed. the cigarette smoke from my hand is clogging my view. in front of the monitor i type this on is a bottle of tempting ass absolut vodka. the label is staring me in the eyes. i’m already to drunk, but i just almost cant help myself. i definitely have a problem on my hands here. i havent’ not drank for a single day in almost 6 months. alcohol is a fucked up drug. Ive met a few people who can get wasted or whatever whenever they want and have no problem. i cant do that. i start drinking and cant stop. im only 20 yeaas old and starting to have stomach problems. i wake up everyday nauseous, which didn’t start happening until after about 2 years of daily drinking. I am fucked up now because of drinking. I was pretty fucked up before drinking, but I’m definitely worse off now.
all you who can handle your liquor are lucky motherfuckers. I wish you nothing more than the best!